DEAR DIARY,

I'm back to square one again - BOREDOM.  So I just ate lunch. My mummy rocks at cooking(: One day, I will cook as well as her. Guess what! I learnt how to cook crab and beef. Trust me, it's not as easy as it looks.  Anyways, now I'm talking to Ben on MSN and Ru Ru by SMS. I have a feeling that something wrong is happening now, and for once it's not me. Yes,yes. I'm right. Something is wrong. But...I can't do anything to stop it. Sadly, it's not only me, it concerns 2 other people as well. But what can I do? I'm not God. I'm only the devil. With only so much power over what happens. Que sera sera. I just hope nothing that good happens. That would be such a happy day for them, and a sad day for me. Yesterday as I was talking to hun, I felt the pain sink in. He loves me, but he loves her more. What can I do? I can't kill her - I don't want to.  Well, maybe I want to. But I won't. Only because I'm nice(: HAHA. So now I'm just reflecting over the past year and what has happened. All the happy and sad things. Oh well, what to do. Whatever I may actually do, it won't be nice. I won't rest until its over.